Go, go, go

Every weekend since Matt has been home we have had something going on. This weekend we are going to a Cardinals game. Go Cards! Next weekend we have my friends wedding and my Grandpa's 70th birthday party. After that, we have NO plans until Thanksgiving. (I hope)

I am so busy during the week with work, school, scheduling and going to appointments that I just want to be able to relax on the weekend and enjoy being with my husband. So hopefully after next weekend we will be able to do that.

I had my first test last night in my Sociology class. It was worth 100 points with 3 bonus questions worth 2 points each. Guess what I got....... 106. Yep that's right. Doing well in school makes me feel excellent about myself. It really does.

School is definitely not easy and my classes are not a breeze but when I put my mind to it and do the work, its definitely worth it. I have a lot of stuff to do for school before next Monday so I need to get on it. But, I'm taking tonight off from doing any homework. I think I deserve it. And Matt deserves a good home cooked meal too.


Staying Positive

All I could think to write about today was negative. So I'm borrowing an idea from Bridget, who borrowed it from someone else.

Instead of whining about this and that, I'm going to tell you what I'm grateful for today.

1. I have a great husband, who is home with me and loves me for me.

2. I have a family that loves me no matter what.

3. I have a job that I like.

4. I have Ozzy. He's such a mommy's boy.

5. We have the cutest house on the block. (literally)

6. I'm getting some new kitchen accessories this week.

7. I'm the smartest kid in both my classes. And I'm modest too.

8. I have some great friends.

Hope everyone has a great day!


I'm a little bitter

I've been putting off writing about this because I thought once I wrote it, it would be true. But now I know, unfortunately that it is true.

Anyone who knows anything about the military knows that you can ask one person one thing and another person the same thing and get two different answers.

When my hubby was going through his clearing process, he was told more than one that I would be able to go to school on his GI bill. I called/emailed the veteran's advisor at the college I go to numerous times between the time I started school and last week. In the beginning, she gave me enough stuff to do to keep me out of her hair.

I called her again last week and told her that hubby has his DD 214 and we would like to meet with her to transfer his GI bill to me. She informs me that there are some very specific requirement that we must meet. He has to have served 6 years, in some way shape or form, and re-enlist for another 4.

He has served 4 and 1/2 years and is going to be in the reserves for another 1 year and 9 months. So basically after the 1 and 9 months (that he is non-deployable) in the reserves, he would have to re-enlisted for 4 more years (and be deployable). Neither one of us wants him to deploy again. Its not worth it to us. He did his thing.

I thought maybe she was the one who didn't know what she was talking about so I did some research, called some people, met with some people and find out that she was right. I'm not going to school courtesy of the Army anymore.

I just don't understand. He doesn't want to go to school. I do. What's the problem?

I did get to talk to a guy that is located between the old and new courthouse. (Nice guy. Very straight forward and wants to help us.) I told him that Matt had specifically had been told when he was clearing that I could use his GI bill. He said "Well of course they did. They will tell them anything to get them to leave happy."

I believe that.

I also talked to this guy about helping my hubby find a job. A job that pays good. A job that he likes. When he came back, he started working at the job he had before he went to the Army. Not because he liked it but because it was a job that would hire him right away.

He gave me the name and number of another guy who's job is to help veterans find jobs. He works in like three counties and is only here on Mondays.

Yesterday was the first day where Matt told me that he hated the job he has now. It makes me depressed that he hates it. I want him to be happy. If he's not happy, I'm not happy. I like my job. (I'd like it more if I got paid more) And I believe that he deserves to like his.

I thank God everyday that we both have jobs and we are both healthy. (Especially after going to the VA yesterday and seeing how big of a joke that is but that's another story and I'm not going to go there.)

As far as school goes, Matt doesn't want me to quit. I don't want to quit. But there is no way we can qualify for financial aid; we both work and don't have any kids. We aren't interested in student loans. We have a mortgage to pay.

Going to school makes me feel good about myself. It could partially be because I have a 4.0. So I'm doing great in school. I guess I will just take 2 or 3 classes a semester. I wanted to get an Associates in Business and do a tech program for Accounting all at the same school. Like I said, I have a job, a job that I'm not afraid of losing. But I want to have some kind of degree. Because I know I can.

Anyway, sorry this blog is all over the place.


My First Award!

I recieved my first blog award yesterday from Dawn at Must Love Tots. I love her blog as well. She's a very strong lady and a wonderful mama.

I'm going to pass it along to:

because I love your blogs.


Getting busy ; )

So, here is the thing... We have been trying to get pregnant but not really. I haven't been on the pill for months. But this is the month that we want to get pregnant. The baby would be born Julyish and I would only have to take the summer off of school.

Matt thinks he will be able to handle doing it every day/night until we get pregnant. Hehehaha.

I feel like I'm 14 writing this. We are going to do it. Lots. Haha.

We are ready for a baby... I think, for the most part.

It seems we have had something going on every weekend since he's been home. We only have this weekend of craziness left and then after that we will be able to settle down. (Flat Land Jam this weekend) And trust me, I'm looking forward to having absolutely nothing to do on the weekend. I would actually rather stay home and clean house or study at this point.

Any advise or words of wisdom on how to make this happen?


What's on my iPod?

I decided to do another edition of "What's on my iPod?" today.

One band that is definitely on my iPod is Cross Canadian Ragweed. They are another Texas Country band that is a cross between rock -n- roll and country. Their lyrics are often about having a good time and living life on the edge.

I have been to four CCR concerts and never once been let down. I have seen them twice in Nashville, one in Ft. Worth, TX, and once in St. Louis. They put on a high energy show and sometimes play into the wee hours of the morning.

CCR just released their 10th album, "Happiness and All Other Things," at the beginning of the month. This album is somewhat different from the rest, as they have added keyboard and more female back-up vocals. It's a good album, but I would have to say it's not my favorite.

I have all 10 CCR albums on my iPod and my favorite is "Soul Gravy." I have more CCR on my iPod than I can listen to in an eight hour work day.

CCR would definitely be on my top 5 favorite bands of all time list.

I definitely recommend checking them out sometime.


100th Post! Q & A

Katie @ The Adventures of Katie and Josh

When you were little what did you want to be when you grow up?
When I was little I wanted to be a teacher, just like everyone else. More specifically though, I wanted to be a math teacher. I have always “thought in numbers.”

Jennifer @ Crazy Shenanigans

Where is the one place you never want to live?
Seattle. Hands down. I have spent enough time there visiting Matt to know it is not the place for me. I’m from the Midwest where people say “please” and “thank you” and “you’re welcome.” Seattle is too fast paced for me too. I prefer things quiet. I also love sunshine. I love being able to wear sunglasses. It rains just about every day there and the sky is hardly ever clear.

Christina @ Sugar Sweet Thoughts

What is the biggest obstacle you face returning to college?
The biggest obstacle is trying to do it all at once: be a wife, go to school, and work. The school part isn’t so bad; the hard part is doing my best at all three.

Toilet paper - over or under?
I don’t really care either way. Matt has to have it over. Once he came up to me and told me that I hung the toilet paper wrong. I was picturing it sideways or something but I had put it under and apparently that’s not right.

(army)Wife @ More than an (army)Wife

Do you have any tattoos? If not, what would you get if you were to get a tattoo?
I have three tattoos. A big butterfly tramp stamp (yes, I have one), I have a friend of mine that died initials on my shoulder blade, and my favorite is on the top of my foot. It is seven stars. They are pink, purple, teal, and yellow. If I were to get another tattoo it would be pink lips on my butt cheek. Seriously.

What is your dream job?
What I really want to do is work from home and take care of our future babies. I want to do small business’s accounting on my pink laptop, in my pjs.

If you could buy any car because money didn't matter, what car would you buy?
That’s a tough one. I even did some research. I want one of those crossover things. Like a Rave 4 or an Equinox but I’m not sure what kind. Something that doesn’t look like a mini-van but more like a miniature SUV.
But if I could go tomorrow and buy any vehicle I would buy a truck for Matt. He deserves one and I would be happy driving his car. Maybe we could keep my little sporty car too.

Lola @not all those who wander are lost

What is your favorite memory with your hubby?
This is a tough one too. We have had lots of good memories together. But I would have to say that my favorite was the night he came home from Iraq. The way I felt when I finally got to hug and kiss him again is something I can’t even describe. I have never felt that way before or since then.


Post #99

My next post will be my 100th post. I will be doing a Q & A post. So feel free to ask away. I will wait until Friday to do it.

Thank you for all your kind words and support on my last blog. I appreciate it. And do not regret sharing any of that with you all. Sometimes it feels good just to let it all out.

Matt and I went to Schuetzenfest 2009 on Saturday night. If you aren't from around here it is a German festival that involves drinking beer out of tin buckets, live bands, (even some polka bands), and shooting guns. They used to have shotgun shooting but now it is BB gun shooting. Something about booze and guns not mixing.

Our house is probably about 100 yards from the fairgrounds where this is held. We walked home. This was our first walk home from the fairgrounds. We walked through a bumpy ass field. Next time we will be taking the long way around, as to avoid tripping over the bumps. But it is nice to know that it is a manageable walk.

Yesterday I had one of my good friends bridal showers. I'm not a big fan of any kind of shower but it was a descent time. Good sandwiches and lots of fruit. She lives about 5 hours away but is getting married here, so it was nice to see her.

I have school tonight. I'm trying to stay positive but I'm getting slightly discouraged. I still have to take 5 classes that have nothing to do with my major. My major is Business. Then I want to do something more along the lines of Accounting. I just don't understand why I have to take a music or art class. I do play guitar but I doubt if knowing a few Zeppelin and Black Sabbath riffs will help me out much in a music class.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a good week!!!


Not a happy or a funny post

When I was a senior in high school, a guy that was an acquaintance, somewhat of a friend of mine, was bringing me home on a Friday night in November. Long story short, he raped me. It was horrible and I’m not going to even try to downplay how that has affected my life. Every. Single. Day.

I told my parents the night it happened. He was arrested. His family hired a good lawyer. It went to trial. They found him not guilty. Well this guy had a girlfriend who I will call S. S was pregnant. S stayed with him and they moved to Nebraska. I have seen him twice in the last almost ten years.

He and S had two more kids. She finally got away from him and is now dating one of my husband’s good friends, C. I like C and I think he is a good guy. The first time I saw them together I was very shocked. I asked him what the hell he was doing with her. C and I talked and he told me that S had been abused in a number of ways by him and she had finally gotten away from him. And that she has no hard feelings towards me.

S & C showed up at our house warming partying. I hate seeing her. She doesn’t bring back anything but bad memories. I don’t feel sorry for her. I realize that may be a little cruel but she could have left him when he was accused of raping someone.

And now that she moved back here guess who came back too. The last time I saw him was right before my hubs came home. I freaked out.

C is going to Afghanistan in less than a month. Will she stick with him through that? I highly doubt it.

It’s hard to just put it all in the past and be a better person and try to be friends nice to her. I’m not mean to her when she is around. I just don’t talk to her, at all. I guess I know that none of it was her fault. But I hate seeing her.

I doubt anyone could really understand what all this means to me, unless you have been through it also but any advise would be appreciated.


Never again

We had our house warming party this weekend on Saturday and Sunday. A friend of mine made some awesome cakes for us. I don't have my camera with me but I'll put the pics on here later if you would like. She made one that was an anniversary cake and one that looked like our house. I decorated the garage in a red, white, and blue theme, as the party was a welcome home party for Matt too.

Saturday it rained all day. Which wasn't a big deal because there weren't too many people there so we stayed in the garage most of the time. A few (supervised) kids were there but mostly adult relatives and friends. Sunday morning I had to clean the house before more people came over. It was awesome and I was very happy to do so. (sarcasm)

Sunday there were a ton of people over. A few times I started to feel a little anxiety. I don't really like groups of people or being anywhere near the center of attention. Early in the day two families on Matt's showed up and between the two families there were 9 rug rats kids. And shortly after two more boy kids came over with their mom and dad. So that's 11 kids in our newly carpeted house, unsupervised. I never once saw their moms' or dads' go inside and check on them. They quickly found Matt's 1980's Nintendo in his play room and made themselves right at home. This is also the room with his prized antique toy tractors.

I would like to say that it was a great time but it wasn't. It was nice to see our friends and it was ok after I decided just to drink enough that I didn't care about the mess. I swear all I did before I had a buzz from the booze was clean up messes. I mean come on, we had two big trash cans available for use. How hard is it to throw a damn paper plate away? Seriously. And wipe your feet. We have plenty of rugs.

Sunday night before I passed out went to sleep Matt discovered that one of his prized toy tractor accessories was broke in half. Let me just tell you he was pissed off not happy. We might not be having kids after this weekend. I mean the little shits trashed our house.

I owe a big thank you to mom and dad for helping cook and clean all weekend. Most of the mud is out of our brand new carpet. But I was too hungover tired yesterday to vacuum all the carpets and clean the hardwood floors. I hate when the house is not clean. Especially since our stuff is still nice. So tonight I'll get our house back up to our standards before I go to school.

So, moral of the story... never again will we be invited all our relatives and their 57 kids over to our house. The only time we will be invited people over is if they stay in the garage or on the deck and watch their kids.

Don't forget that my 100th post is coming and you can ask me whatever you want and I will answer it in that post. Ask as many as you want. I have two questions now so if you don't ask more it will be a pretty lame post.


Our 1st Anniversary

Tomorrow is our first wedding anniversary. I wrote a blog about our wedding here around the time I first started this blog. I recommend reading it, as our wedding was different than most.

Happy Anniversary baby! I love you more than anything in this world. You are my hero, my partner in crime, and my better half. I will love you forever and always. I promise to never forget how much you mean to me.

Here are some more pics from our wedding.

Can you see me?

I can see you!

I changed my web address. I didn't lose anyone. Did you lose me? It says I still have 11 followers. I'm thinking the transition was more than smooth.

Our house warming party is this weekend. We've been doing lots to get ready for it. Tonight we have to run to Wal-Mart to get just a few things and then we have to do some cleaning. (dusting, mirrors, and stuff like that)

Don't forget that my 100th post is coming and you can ask me whatever you want and I will answer it in that post. Ask as many as you want. I have two questions now so if you don't ask more it will be a pretty lame post. Hahaha


Changing my web address tomorrow and other news

That's right! Tomorrow morning I will be changing my web address to www.imwatchingairplanes.blogspot.com, as I am becoming to popular in the blogging world to be displaying my last name. You know, with all 11 people that follow me. : ) I have wrote down all the addresses of everyone I follow and I will add you back if it deletes you. I'm pretty sure you will have to find me back and re-add me.

I also have started an email for my blog only it is imwatchingairplanes@yahoo.com.

In other news, my 100th blog is quickly approaching. For my 100th blog I would like to do a question and answer post. You ask the questions and I'll give the answer. Either leave it as a comment on my blog or email it to me. I'm hoping to get a lot of good questions. : )

Hope everyone has a good day!!!


I'm in the Old Lady Group

At the community college I go to it seems as if most people fall into one of three categories: people 20 and younger, people 40 and old, or single parents. I fall into none of these categories.

Last night in my sociology class we had to get into groups of three for a group project. I sit by this one older lady in my class because she is in my other class and seems like a nice lady. So we decided we would be in a group together. Then the other older lady comes up to us and asks to be in our group. Ok no problem.

After everyone is in a group I kinda look around and there is one group of jocks, one group of preppy girls, one group on kids all from the same town, one group of nerdy girls, and my old lady group.

I mean I'm 28. Not 50. Am I a loser cause I'm in the old lady group? Do the other kids in class think I'm an old lady?

To make things worse old lady #2 in my group wanted to do our group project on the chapter on sex and gender, which involves transgender and hermaphrodites. She would not budge. That is what we are doing ours on. I mean I don't have a problem with it but its not something I wanna stand up and talk about in front of a bunch of 19 year olds.


Proud Owner

Yesterday I became the owner of my car. It is a 2003 Eclipse. This is the first time I have ever had a car that was paid for before it was a total peice of crap. I have had this car almost four years now and its finally mine, well and Matt's (the whole what's mine is yours thing).

Matt is going to get a truck some time before it starts snowing. We will be trading my sporty little car in for his truck and I will be driving his more family friendly vehicle.

I have never had a vehicle given to me before, I have always had to pay for them on my own. I feel this has taught me to appreciate the things I have more. Anyway, I'm going to be enjoying the next few months of having no car payments.