Not me

Is everyone obsessed with losing weight, exercising, and eating like a rabbit? It seems like everyone is unhappy with their body. I hear about it at home, work, school, and in random places like the mall or Wal-Mart.

To me, having arms as big as round as a toothpick is disguisting. Having a butt is cute and having a little extra baggage isn't always a bad thing.

I guess I have never really worried about my weight. If I gain ten pounds in the winter and lose it in the summer then so be it. If I keep it on and then put on another ten the next winter, oh well. And I'm definately not gonna worry about losing any now. If I get prego, I'm gonna gain weight anyway.

I feel just fine the way I am. I also feel very lucky to have a man that loves me just the way I am. He thinks I am sexy and that's all that matters.


Home Sweet Home

I'm back from visiting my hubby. We had a wonderful time. The Mariniers game was... eh well its the Mariniers. Far from the Cardinals or Busch Stadium. I got a new pink Sony Vaio laptop. Its very exciting and I can't wait to get it all just how I want it (music and whatnot).

Matt signed all the paperwork for the house while I was out there and I closed the deal yesterday. I now have the keys to our very own house. Now all that is missing is my hubby. We can hardly wait for him to get home and start living the dream.

I have a lot stuff I need to get for the house but I think I'm just gonna get a little here and a little there. I don't plan on moving to our home till my hubby gets home. So this way I have two months to get everything ready for US.


Leaving on a jet plane

I'm going to see my hubby this weekend in WA. The weather there is supposed to be beautiful this weekend. Its supposed to be sunny all weekend. Of all the time I have spent there I have maybe witnessed 5 sunny days.

We are going to a Mariners game tomorrow night. It's bobblehead night. So my hubby will have another bobblehead to add to his collection. No other real plans for while I am out there.

I can't wait to get there and see my husband. Words can not describe how great it is to see him after we spend time apart.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend.


Before I sleep

I have a descent job. Its a job that I like. My boss's are nice. Most of my co-workers are nice and only a few of them drive me nuts. I have worked at this job for almost three years. I consider it a real job and I could see myself staying here for years.

I also have a shit job. I wait tables and I'm almost 28 years old. I worked this shit job before my real job. At first I continued working there to pay off my debt, nothing major. Then Matt left for Iraq. So I kept working the shit job to stay busy and save some money while he was gone.

Now Matt is back and I really don't need to continue working there. But I do. I wanna do everything I can to give our future a decent head-start.

That being said, every time I go in there I go in with a good attitude. I try to always remember that it is extra money and there is no need to fret about anything that happens there. Well this good attitude usually fades rather quickly once I am there.

For example, last night was a private school in town's 8th grade graduation. The management knew they were coming. The place closes at 9:30. At 8:30 literally 150 people walk in the doors. Normally on a busy night I will have a 4 table station. When these people showed up I had 8 tables full of rich, snobby 8th graders and their parents.

Normally on parties of 8 or more we can add 18% gratuity so that we don't get hosed. None of the other servers added the gratuity so I didn't either. Big mistake. Those rich bastards didn't tip worth a shit. I don't even think some of the teenieboppers paid me for their bill. Needless to say, by the time they left I was pissed. After something like this happens, its very hard for me to remember that its just a second job.

I got home around 11:30 and had to be to work this morning at my real job at 8:00. Before I go to bed every night I always ask myself if I am proud of my actions during the course of the day. Most nights there is always something I feel I could have done better. Maybe I am too hard on myself and maybe I expect too much from myself. I don't know. I do know that most times I work at my second job I leave feeling as if I have let myself down in some way or another.


Home sweet.... not yet

The house situation:

We found a house we love. Its in Altamont which will be far enough away that my parents won't be over every night but close enough for me to possibly make it to work on time everyday. The guy that owns the house bought it from a repo and totally remodeled it. New carpet. New hardwood floors. New lights. New french doors to the new huge deck. New driveway and sidewalks. Its the only house I looked at the felt like home when I walked in.

Anyway, the people that the house got repoed from must have had some kinda loan that had something to do with the title of the house. When the guy that owns it now bought it the title company said the title was clear and he has insurance on the title (?). The owner and the title company just have to get their "ducks in a row" so to speak, before we can close.

We were supposed to close on Friday but now it will take a few more days. I had looked in the having Matt come home for the closing but it would have cost about $500and I'm going out there next weekend. We have to have all the paperwork sent to him and then he has to have it notarized and send it back before we can actually close.

So now, I'm thinking we will be lucky if we close before I go out there next weekend.

I'm getting rather impatient so that is why I have started shopping for stuff for our house. Kohl's had a big sale this weekend and I got a really cool comforter/sheets/bed skirt/pillowcases/some more stuff set. I also got some rugs and stuff. My thinking is that if I buy this stuff a little at a time it won't hurt the ole bank account as bad.

Moral of the story: BUYING A HOUSE IS A PAIN IN THE TUSH. I know it will all be worth it though.


Kohl's carts???

The town I live in just got a Kohl's maybe a year or so ago. I waited until it was there at least six months to let the newness wear off before I ventured in there. Before last week, I had probably been there three or four times, always with a particular item in mind that I wanted to buy.

Well this weekend I went in there because I saw a flyer about a sale they had going on. I walked in the door and look around for a cart. I see these playpen looking things on wheels. I thought those must be for people with kids. I keep looking and that is all they have. Then I see people pushing these hideous looking "carts" around.

I was too embarrassed to push such a contraption around. I have been to Kohl's three times since Saturday buying miscellaneous items for our house and have yet to use one of those things.

Maybe this is a good way for me to refrain from spending too much money in one trip.


Blog Stalking

Well I've had 250 profile views now so I guess that makes me a pretty big deal... jk. I added some new blogs to follow to ease my boredom at work. So if you see me following you that is why. I only have three followers so that makes me feel a little lame. But this really isn't for anyone else anyway. It's for me.

Here are a few random things that have been going on:

The house thing is still not final. We were supposed to close on Friday. Now God only knows when that will happen.

I have become addicted to talkaboutham.com. It is the stupidest crap possibly on all of the Internet and 90% of the people that post things on there are just trying to be mean and pick fights but I read the garbage.

I'm going to Washington to see my husband next weekend and I am very ready for a break from everything. And besides I miss him.

Matt and I think we want a kid by next summer. We have names picked out. And no I'm not telling. Hehe

Grandma went home. She wants to die at home and not in some pee smelling nursing home.

I'm done with school until June 8th. I got an A on every paper I wrote. I'm not sure what I got on my final but I really don't see how I could get less than an A in the class. What can I say, I may have been born to go to school at LLC.

75 days untill Matt ETS's. And by the way, ETS is my favorite army acronym.

Still sick of my 2nd job and all the crap that goes along with it, except the extra cash.

Anywho, that's about all I've got.


Reality Check

Today I when I came back from lunch I was reading the yahoo news, as I usually do. In the last couple months I have read where soldiers have died in places that Matt was at in Iraq. Today it sunk in once again how lucky I am that nothing happened to my man while he was over there. Trust me I did plenty of worrying while he was there but sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have him home. My heart goes out to anyone that has lost friends, family, and loved ones to this war.

Cheating is bad

Here is what I came up with for why people cheat:

“The Storm” is a short story by Kate Chopin that is about an affair that takes place during a violent storm in the early 1900’s. This story raises the question, “Why do people in seemingly healthy relationships choose to be unfaithful?” The most widespread reason for cheating in a relationship is because there are problems in the relationship. People may also decide to be unfaithful because they are seeking revenge on their partners. Sometime people cheat simply because of their self-desire or because they have opportunities to be unfaithful. Infidelity can also stem from an unhealthy childhood and lack of being taught morals and how to treat people.

One common problem in a relationship that could lead to a person cheating is loneliness. This problem could come from having a spouse who works too much, travels for his or her job, or just does not spend a lot of time with his or her partner. When two people in a relationship are spending long periods of time away from each other, most likely one of them will become lonely. When my husband was deployed to Iraq for fifteen months, most of his male friends’ relationships ended within two months of their departure due to their girlfriends cheating on them. Most relationships will not survive these conditions and both people involved must be sure of themselves, their partners, and their relationships.

Another reason people give for engaging in infidelity is that they are not receiving enough attention from their spouses or are only receiving a negative type of attention. People may chose to cheat because they believe they can find someone who will treat them better and give them more attention than their spouse. For instance, a wife that is expected to cook, clean, take care of the children, and work could feel unappreciated and believe that she deserves to be with someone who does not expect her to do so much. She may meet someone who says all the right things, buys her gifts, and makes her feel special and then choose to cheat on her husband.

In some relationships, the passion in the relationship may gradually fade. Either partner may lose the attraction he or she once had for the other for a number of reasons. Some women and men may simply stop taking as much care of their appearances after they are married. A woman could decide that shaving her legs regularly is not as important after she is married as it was before. Also, having children takes a toll on a woman’s body and some men will lose the attraction they once had for their wives after childbirth. Passion could also fade in a relationship because the couple grows apart after time. Some couples after being together for ten or twenty years, will stay together only because it is easier to do so. Intimacy can become repetitious and boring after years together and the decrease in passion could cause a person to cheat in a relationship.

Sometimes when people are unfaithful to their spouses, it is because they are seeking revenge for something the other person did. A person could be unfaithful because they are continually accused of doing so. If a man is constantly accused of cheating he may believe that he may as well cheat and seek revenge for the accusations. Also, if a wife cheats on her husband, the husband could decide to cheat on her. I believe this is totally asinine and instead of seeking revenge the person should just give up with the relationship and move on. Two wrongs never make a situation right.

In a perfectly healthy relationship, a person may not always be totally satisfied. Being in a monogamous relationship simply cannot satisfy some men and women. They need to have multiple partners for their own self-desire and to boost their ego. Opportunity to cheat may arise and even though a person has no issues in his or her relationship he or she will cheat because the chance is present.

Another factor in why people cheat in relationships could be from a lack of morals or being around cheating during childhood. If a woman’s mother cheated on her husband when the daughter was young and the daughter was exposed to it, it is likely that the daughter would cheat on her partner as well. With so many people getting divorced multiple times, it makes teaching children to be faithful to one person for the duration of their life nearly impossible. Children learn from examples and it is almost more common for a child’s parents to be divorced or never have been married rather than being married forever.

I am fortunate enough to have parents that have been married my whole life and I’m sure this contributes to my views on this topic. Regardless of the reason a person may give for being unfaithful, I believe it is wrong and should be avoided, especially in marriage. A person that promises to his or her partner and to God to stay faithful to each other should do so. If the relationship becomes unhealthy, lacks passion, or the partner does something wrong, then person should end the relationship. Hurting someone’s feelings only for a person’s own pleasure is not only selfish, but is also wrong.


She's got balls


I was googling trying to get ideas of why people cheat when I stumbled upon this blog. This woman has some real balls. It was all wrote in 2006. Its funny but then again its not.

Just thought I would share.


Texas Country

Texas Country music is a sub-genre of Country music that has become one of my favorite types of music. This type of music is more of a feeling than it is a sound. The lyrics of it usually have a carefree feeling and are often about honest, hard working people. These artists sing about having a good time, living on the edge, and taking life as it comes. The bands of this genre provide powerful live shows, which in turn, give them fiercely, loyal fans.

Texas Country primarily originates from Texas, with its roots being musicians such as, Willie Nelson and Johnny Cash. In the 1960s’ and 1970s’ Willie, Johnny, and some other musicians left the corporate Nashville scene and moved to Texas during the Outlaw Country Movement. Texas Country musicians are now anti-Nashville and this is even sometimes reflected in their lyrics. “Cross Canadian Ragweed” has a song called “Record Executive” that is about how the band will not sign a deal with a large, corporate record label because they believe all of their hard work and accomplishments will become the record label’s and not their own. There is a line in this song that goes, “I didn’t build it all just to watch it fall into your hands.”

Although most Texas Country artists are from Texas, some bands that fall into this genre are from other states and have re-located to Texas. For instance, “Reckless Kelly” and “Micky and the Motorcars” are bands who are from Stanley, Idaho that have both moved to Austin, Texas. Also Chris Knight is a singer and songwriter of Texas Country that is from Kentucky. Because of his reputation in Texas, a Texas governor named him an honorary Texan. Also, “Jason Boland and the Stragglers,” “No Justice,” and “Stoney LaRue” are all successful Texas Country artists from Oklahoma.

What a Texas Country band stands for and how it sounds varies from band to band. A lot of Texas Country songs describe the beauty of Texas and paint a picture of the Texas landscape. They depict features such as red Texas dirt, gravel roads, and long stretches of fences. They are also often supporters of the troops, although not necessarily of war. “Reckless Kelly” has a song that is about how our country sends young men off to war that are not allowed to have a beer but are willing to donate their lives to the land of the free. “Cross Canadian Ragweed” has a song called “Long Way Home” that is a narrative of a young man sent to Vietnam.

Many Texas Country bands are involved with charities as well. “Reckless Kelly” has a program that they are implementing at their merchandise area called “Reckless Kelly Care Packages.” They are collecting an assortment of items from their fans to send to service men and women overseas. Also, on April 19, 2009 “Reckless Kelly,” “Cross Canadian Ragweed,” “Randy Rogers Band,” and others were involved with a celebrity softball game, which was followed by a Texas Country concert. All the proceeds of this event were donated to several Austin, Texas organizations. In March of 2008, “Cross Canadian Ragweed” participated in three day, sixty-mile walk in which proceeds were donated to a reputable breast cancer research, education, screening, and treatment fund.

This genre of music involves a variety of instruments. Almost every one of these bands includes an acoustic guitar and some of their songs will consist of only an acoustic guitar and lyrics. Other fundamental instruments include bass guitar, electric guitars, and percussion. Some other instruments that can be included in this type of band are the harmonica, piano, banjo, trombone, mandolin, and fiddle.

Texas Country music is a cross between Rock and Roll and Country, with some Blues and Honky Tonk thrown in. It often has lengthy guitar solos and a drum beat that makes people want to tap their feet and move their heads along with it. Most Texas Country songs’ lyrics are very catchy because they are something anyone can relate to. For instance, “Cross Canadian Ragweed” has a song called “Anywhere but Here,” in which they describe not changing who they are and leaving where they are in search of a good time. The proposal in this song is something that everyone wishes to do and it has a very catchy chorus.

Seeing a live performance of Texas Country is somewhat surreal. The beats, guitar riffs, and lyrics have a way of sending a chill over my body. When I saw “Reckless Kelly” for the first time, I was so captivated by the music and the performance that I barely realized what was going on around me. This is most likely what leads these bands to having such dedicated fans. Most people that go to these concerts know the band and the words to the songs, and may have traveled hundreds of miles to go to the concert. My cousin and I drove over eight hundred miles to Dallas, Texas on Labor Day of 2007 to go an all day Texas Country festival with twelve bands. My ticket cost twenty-five dollars and it was probably the best twenty-five dollars I have ever spent.

Texas Country music is different from regular Country music in several ways. Regular Country music tends to have a slower more depressing sound to it. It is often about a broken heart or unrealistic ideas. For example, there is a Country song about playing solitaire till dawn with a deck of fifty-one. Now, I think I would realize after a few rounds that I was missing a card. Texas Country is a more upbeat, enthusiastic, and realistic form of country music. It has been described as “country with an attitude.” During regular Country music concerts, often the performers are not near as involved with the crowd and they do not have as dedicated following as with Texas Country.

Texas Country musicians rely on themselves to make it big and the best way to do so is through their fans and performances. This genre of music is becoming increasingly popular due to the amazing live shows, genuine music, and lyrics that are easy to relate to. Texas Country is a furiously, rocking type of country music that has become my favorite type of music.


I went to my second to last class last night. I got a paper back I wrote on Texas Country music. I got a 100%. Go me!

We got our assignment for the final exam. We had to read a short story called "The Storm." It takes place in the early 1900s and is about a man and woman who are both married to other people that have an affair with each other. The assignment is to write about why people cheat. Seems a little weird to me. I'm not a cheater. I don't wanna know or learn anything about why people cheat. I believe cheating is wrong no matter how you slice it. I'll suck it up and bullcrap my way through it but I don't like it.