11/21/2011

Mini-Meltdown

I worry about Button, a lot.  Everyday.

Last night I had a bad dream.  I won't go into details.  I woke up crying.  Matt asked me if something hurt.  I told him no that I had a bad dream.  That was around 5:30.  I don't think I really went back to sleep.

This morning I had a mini-meltdown.  It had been 4 weeks since I had been to my doctor.  And I wasn't supposed to go back until next Friday.  I called there and talked to the nurse.  Told her what my problem was.  Cried a little.  She said to come in.

They found a heartbeat.  Every thing's fine.  Little Button was moving around a lot according to the doctor.  I cried some more.

I told the doctor I thought I felt Button move sometimes.  He said I probably did.

I also told him about Vinnie.  Vinnie likes to lay his head on my stomach when I'm sitting on the couch.  And lay on my stomach in bed.  I told him he only weighs 7 pounds.  The doctor said that it's fine for him to lay on me and he probably knows what's going on.  I thought that was cute.

I asked the nurse if I was the biggest drama queen that they have ever had to deal with.  She said, "No, far from it."  So, I guess that's good.

The doctor says that my hormones should be easier to manage soon.  It's horrible.  If I'm not crying, I'm pissed about something or someone is annoying me.  Usually Matt.  And that's not good.  I don't want to be aggravated or annoyed all the time.

Maybe that's why I haven't been posting as much.  Cause I've been a mess.  This shit is no joke.

But, most importantly Button is fine.  My next appointment is in 3.5 weeks.  Then I have a sonogram a week after that and we should be able to find out if it is a boy or a girl. 

I'm going to try really hard not to worry.  I really am.  I'm guessing it's not good for me or Button.

I'm linking up with Implusive Addict and Shawn for Talk to us Tuesday again.  Yay!




Hope you all have a great week and a Happy Thanksgiving!

12 comments:

MiMi said...

Awww. :( I know exactly what you are going through. It will be okay. Pretty soon you'll be at a point that you won't worry so much...but you'll have heartburn from hell.

Jill said...

I imagine I'll be like you some day, if I ever get to have a baby. I don't know if it's possible NOT to worry. Do the best you can...and like MiMi said, before long you won't have to worry so much.

And I've also heard it's normal for the husband to become #1 Most Annoying Person in the world...just a part of pregnancy. ;)

Megan said...

Sweet heart you are a woman worrying is what we do! I have never gone through this but I know it has to be hard! I can kind of guess why hubby would be the number one most annoying person...even more so when stuff starts to hurt....they kind of helped make it but other than that the just get the joy of holding it in 9 months! Hang in there girl! At least you have a reason to eat a ton of turkey, stuffing, and pie this year!!

Jessica @ {Mis}Adventures of a Lifetime said...

On a lighter note, can you imagine the stories the nurses could tell about drama queens?!

Impulsive Addict said...

My dog (who is 20 pounds) loved to lay on or near my tummy too. I really do think they have a sense about that. Isn't that funny? I'm happy that you can feel your baby moving around. I didn't feel Emma until I was 19 weeks pregnant. I felt like it took forever!

You are acting very normal. It will get better soon. =) Just remember that a dream is about to come true. Think positive thoughts. =) xoxo

VandyJ said...

My cats loved to lay on my expanding tummy with both my pregnancies. Animals just know.
And it's better to be reassured than to stress about it. Better for everyone involved.

Becca said...

I hear you on the hormones. I hope that you and yours have a most wonderful Thanksgiving!

Shauna Nosler said...

I remember feeling like that - it's such a miracle that a life can grow inside of us :) stopping in to follow from today's hop. Hope you can visit soon and return the favor - oh and check out my book that's on sale right now through Amazon - yes, that was a shameless plug but it is only $0.99 :) www.shaunanosler.blogspot.com/

MrsMcDancer said...

Parenthood= worry. It starts before they are even born and never goes away {or so I'm told}
I'm glad that Button is doing well and moving all around :-) That is adorable about Vinnie. I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving and try not to worry too much and just enjoy {I know, easier said than done}

Jessica said...

Would it make you feel better if I told you that you'll never, ever stop worrying now for the rest of your life?? This quote pretty much sums it up...
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
Everything is going to be fine. Worry just comes with the territory. Try to relax and enjoy this experience.. and maybe a little later you can get a script for Xanax ;)

WhisperingWriter said...

I'm glad everything is okay!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

Aw, hang in there! I'm sure everything is going to be ok. It sounds like those hormones are rough!!